i don't know any more
Journal Entry: Thu Sep 20, 2007, 7:33 PM
well my grandfather has now passed away and the last person i had ever felt close to is now gone.. i don't think i can be close to anyone.. the pain i have when they are near to me is greater than being alone.. which i am now... i had only 3 people in my life that i cared for and i have abandoned myself to 1 and the others have left me by way of death which i see would probly be better than i am now... i wonder how much that would make me feel better and hurt less i constantly fight my head and heart on how i feel and the descisions i make and have made about the person i abandoned i loved him i truely did but i don't think i can ever take back what i had done to him... and it hurts.. i hurt and i know he does or did i'm sure he has gotten over me by now... but i do still think of him... but nothing can ever ease the pain from death and abandon ment and i'm sorry eric forgive me... and just remember i loved you i did i just felt like i needed to be alone.. my mind won't rest my heart won't stop hurting and i'm just glad i had a chance to know you and yes i know those reasons probly weren't good enough but i fallowed my heart and did what i felt i had to do and if i hurt you in any way i'm sorry i will stay away and i shall never enterfear with any one again so as soon as i find out how i will delete this account and let you be rid of me.. so goodbye all
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Devious Comments
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the hours are breathing faint and low and when amid no earthly moans, down down that town shall settle hence hell rising from a thousand thrones shall do it reverance.
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BURN!!
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Remember remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
Should ever be forgot...
~*Guy Fawkes & the Gunpowder Plot*~
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the hours are breathing faint and low and when amid no earthly moans, down down that town shall settle hence hell rising from a thousand thrones shall do it reverance.
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BURN!!
~~~~~~~
Remember remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
Should ever be forgot...
~*Guy Fawkes & the Gunpowder Plot*~
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the hours are breathing faint and low and when amid no earthly moans, down down that town shall settle hence hell rising from a thousand thrones shall do it reverance.
--
BURN!!
~~~~~~~
Remember remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
Should ever be forgot...
~*Guy Fawkes & the Gunpowder Plot*~
... wow grim reaper dude niffty
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the hours are breathing faint and low and when amid no earthly moans, down down that town shall settle hence hell rising from a thousand thrones shall do it reverance.
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"Besides, I fell in love with that lonely little girl I met so long ago..."
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